About me

Well, hi there! Do you believe in coincidence by any chance?

I'm really trying to, but Life challenges it again and again. Too many things have happened just 'by chance' and by time the credibility of luck and happenstance shrank.

I guess we're really living in interesting times and going out in the world gives you a glimpse of it, a feeling of specialness, a unique road we're heading on.

Mine was already interesting enough, I could stop just now and try to live a normal Life, try to become happy through that. But like I said, I don't believe Life happens by coincidence, too many things came across my way and intended a future for me - somewhere they were leading to. Opening doors, connections and inspirations. If I would give up on myself, I would give up on them. But those moments in my past have set up the potential of something really great in the future, for me, for you and for everyone else. Knowing that will keep us going.

There's a potential of what each of us can experience. We won't succeed in seeing it all, but we can choose to try. Giving up on the world shouldn't be an option, but it's the easy way, it's the flow most of us are heading down on. I'm willing to influence and change peoples mind, to inspire them to do and live greater, to see more, to feel more, to go beyond in thoughts and in bodily realms. We've all gotten only this one life. I hope we're on the same team when striving to make the most of it.

This one Life of mine led me to a few very special places. It made me enjoy and suffer from some conditions, but never lacked on being a good teacher. The least I could do is telling you my story, spreading what I have learned in order to support others. I'm Lennart by the way. I'm trying to travel the world, to connect with as many beings as possible, to learn all there is offered and to help in the greatest scheme possible hidden in my potential.

By reading through these pages you will acquire a few things, some irrelevant, others interesting, a few others might be essential for our understanding of todays age and the upcoming youth generation, and one idea I'm willing to share is a vision of how Life could look beyond the prison of current circumstances, an utopian dream of how to live communal, in unity with nature, sharing a sustainable lifestyle, while working what suits you best, growing by the tasks given. A place to enjoy the social complex, to live out the artistic and creative vein we all posses and to free ourselves from what is our burden. Far off from technology that consumes our life time, away from materialism and consumerism, but instead filled with what has real worth to us. The treasure of humankind which I thought to lay in Morals, our Minds and our Health.

To give you an understanding of whos lines you're reading there. At my current age of 20 I managed to graduate and flee from my home country. At least for a year. Hidden in the depths of Canadian forests, I've been working on Vancouver Island on a little farm just a bit north of the Malahats. Actually I was volunteering. No payment needed to enjoy life, actually the opposite often seems to be the case. After this year I had to face the apparent and demolishing truth of what a work Life should look like and I started an apprenticeship in carpentry. Without spoiling too much, I wouldn't be sitting here typing if that thing would've worked out. But three months of deep diving into a craftsmanship felt like a blessing. Then I experienced what I wish for everyone to have the chance of experiencing one day. A void of emptiness.

It was a quarter of a cycle. Three months from D to F. Living at home, without a job, without responsibilities and technically without a purpose. This is a privilege and I'm more than aware. And this isn't a segment of Life that anybody should aim for. For most people this would be horrible. Three months without anything to do, without a plan of what is to come next. Facing the fears and uncertainties of yourself and the people who care about you. My parents handled it extraordinarily well I must say, and not to lie, so did I. Someone once said, 'I'm not bragging if it's true', and now I grab hold of that phrase in order to escape the feeling of weirdly celebrating what I did. Or what I didn't. Because it's primarily about what I managed to resist. There wasn't a movie or series grind, I never scrolled to the bottom of a social media app and I never stayed longer in the horizontal sleeping posture than my body demanded to. I definitely would feel ashamed to tell it this way, if my grand goal wasn't to get you as the reader of my words, out of the claws of modern technologies, to help you build a mental bridge to escape those dopamine prisons and experience Life the way I was already able to. Having this feeling of full control over your time and actions, was really quite something.

Here is what I did instead. I fasted and meditated. I fasted for 19 days, from December 26th until the evening of January 14th. I meditated at least half an hour a day. I journaled as I started to over a year ago and more importantly, I began to write my very first book. God damn me, but it's in German, sorry for that. You can find it published on this Blog as well. I also read through some books that were on my list and I will advertise reading from time to time as the greatest tool we have to expand our fantasy, our mental capacities, our vocabulary and our ability to concentrate, focus or simply pay attention. I got to learn Chinese, started programming, and first thoughts of founding a club popped into my head. I underwent some surgery which was the reason I had to put an end to my fasting journey and ate an apple because my mom asked me to, after 461 hours of only drinking tea and water. During this whole time I slept on my floor. On a thin, grey carpet to be exact. This is a continuation from what I experienced in Canada, where I've already slept on a yoga mat for a little over five months. I will explain it all and with the help of your fantasy you might just get it.

It did come to some cost. Don't get me wrong, those costs are key parts to create the opportunity itself, but some of them aren't pleasing. Isolation isn't. Neither is physical uncomfortability. But they can be great teachers if one has an open and enduring mind to listen, to stay interested and to be flexible. It needs a little lightheadedness, some sort of foolishness, to invent yourself anew on the spot. I think this opened up the world for me. To see myself clear in my state and especially in my flexibility of mind, and then it wasn't about who I am or what I'm willing to do anymore, but it shifted and asked for where I'm heading to, which people I need to connect with.

Darn it, it's the internet. I guess I knew it from the start and that's why I stayed away from it for so long. Maybe I've been waiting for the right opportunity but now I guess to know that there's never a good time when it's about the World Wide Web. But I couldn't stay away for ever. Maybe it was excitement about what could be possible, maybe it was despair about how in the world else is one supposed to connect with common thinkers. It started pretty spontaneously on a sunny but snowy afternoon in Oslo. When I realised that I don't belong home and there is a world to see, it didn't take much more than a month of planning (maybe it took so little because I didn't really plan at all) and before you know any better you see your German self standing with a backpack and a tent in the midst of a foreign country for three weeks in the depths of march. Norway! It wasn't boring and it wasn't lonely, not once. And I had the internet to share my journey and my thoughts connected to it. Afterwards I felt guilt for wasting other peoples time by just being the next pixel face absorbing their attention, reducing the chance of them doing anything better than doom scrolling. Darn it. But that was only my view. The feedback I got from friends and family was astounding. Either way, I stopped after that journey even tho it felt tempting to further on act important and put myself into the world and the heads of others. Just realising that I haven't had anything important to say stopped me from continuing. Oh, by the way, I haven't had a phone until the age of 17, just in case you're wondering why in the world my connection to that rectangle of disgrace is so weird. Don't like it. Never will. Sowwy.

Since then, since my little glimpse and first sight of a world that wants to be traveled, I stuck with the easy way. I got a side job to accumulate a bit of wealth on the way until it would be enough to plan further travels, I socialised and dreamt of a club in which the youth could meet up without phones, communicate, discover their artistic potential, be creative, read books and write poems and journals. Create greater awareness, do more sport and live more of a Life as one could wish for everyone, more away from their smartphones in the midst of other human beings. The casual dreaming, you probably know it.

So as you can see; I'm torn between multiple approaches of managing my being. I'm drawn between my personal life, self development and striving towards a position in which I can do the most good possible, and I'm stuck in the moment, in which I'm totally unknown, lost in space without too much money to spare and only able to change the local area. So I want to travel and inspire. At the same time I want to found a club in my hometown to help my generation see that there is more to Life than a few screens and short videos. All of this demands effort and time. Half of my time is used up by paid work. I couldn't care less about the payment, but in order to do what I do and later on doing what I wish to do, which is traveling and staying alive while on it, I kind of need it. But do I even have to say, that earning money would be much more fulfilling if it came by doing the thing you love? For me that's writing. Writing about what I experience and see, what I learn and think. This might help a few, but it's going to be especially helpful if I find people like-minded that later on are willing to join me on a road to actually bring change into the world. Invent living anew and working towards a better, greener and more peaceful future.

You might wonder, what's in for you? What could you possibly get by reading the weirdly confusing diary-like entries of a 20 year old moron who thinks to have understood the world? Well, I don't see a why, but if you're not up to anything more important and you have a few moments a week to spare, why not waste it on getting an insight of a young mind growing up in a world that probably none of us is able to properly comprehend. What makes me me, what's makes you you? I guess it's just a different point of view. And a different point of view is the very least you could get out of this. Obviously I'm hoping to inspire you, to bring new knowledge ashore, to bring hope and make the future look a little brighter. I'm hoping to give perspective on how to change things. On how to choose a side, whether we're living to save the world or whether we're living to go down with it.

I could be your guide for a while, until you find a better one. I can show you the directions, the exploring will be up to you, but I'm positive that I can bring one or the other thing onto the surface that didn't seem possible beforehand. Through mindfulness and meditation we're going to reflect on mental Health, on bodily Health as on Morals and will try to strive for fulfilment. This journey starts in ourselves and reading, oh people, reading has always been a great tool to acquire clarity in a chaotic age, anchoring us in truth while opening the gates of imagination.

This is a silent Revolution, page by page, reshaping hearts and horizons alike.